And at 16, I stumbled across another opportunity, and I earned my first acting role in a film.
当我16岁时,我无意中遇到另一个机遇,得到了我的第一个电影角色。
I can hardly find the words to describe the peace I felt when I was acting.
我难以找到言语来形容在表演中我感受到的平静。
My dysfunctional self could actually plug in to another self, not my own, and it felt so good.
我那残缺的自我,终于融入了不是我自己的另一个自我,这种感觉真好。
It was the first time that I existed inside a fully-functioning self -- one that I controlled, that I steered, that I gave life to.
那是我第一次存在于一个正常运作的自我,一个我可以控制的,可以操纵的,可以赋予生命的自我。
But the shooting day would end, and I'd return to my gnarly, awkward self.
但是拍摄的日子终会结束,我也会回到我那扭曲尴尬的自我。
By 19, I was a fully-fledged movie actor, but still searching for definition.
当我19岁时,我已经是一个羽翼丰满的电影演员,但却仍在寻找定义。
I applied to read anthropology at university. Dr. Phyllis Lee gave me my interview, and she asked me, "How would you define race?"
我在大学里申请攻读人类学。Phyllis Lee博士对我进行了面试,她问我:“你怎样定义种族?”
Well, I thought I had the answer to that one, and I said, "Skin color." "So biology, genetics?" she said."
嗯,我觉得我有答案,然后我说:“肤色。” 她继续问道:“也就是生物学基因上的差异?”
Because, Thandie, that's not accurate. Because there's actually more genetic difference between a black Kenyan and a black Ugandan than there is between a black Kenyan and, say, a white Norwegian.
“因为,桑迪,肤色并不准确。在一个黑皮肤的肯尼亚人和一个黑皮肤的乌干达人之间存在的基因差异,实际上超过在一个黑皮肤的肯尼亚人和一个,比如说,白皮肤的挪威人之间的差异。
Because we all stem from Africa. So in Africa, there's been more time to create genetic diversity."
因为我们都起源于非洲,所以在非洲,更有可能产生基因多样性。”
In other words, race has no basis in biological or scientific fact. On the one hand, result. Right?
换句话说,种族这一说法并没有生物学或科学基础,一方面,这是结果,对吗?
On the other hand, my definition of self just lost a huge chunk of its credibility.
另一方面,我对自我的定义则失去了相当大一部分的可信度。
But what was credible, what is biological and scientific fact, is that we all stem from Africa -- in fact, from a woman called Mitochondrial Eve who lived 160,000 years ago.
可以相信的,以及生物学和科学事实,就是我们都起源于非洲。实际上,起源于一个叫做线粒体夏娃的女人,她生活在十六万年前。
And race is an illegitimate concept which our selves have created based on fear and ignorance.
种族是一个不合法的概念,是我们基于恐惧和无知自己创造出来的。