When you were sick you worried because you could not give me something that you wanted to and thought I needed.
你生病时,你很担心你不能给我我想要的,因为你觉得我需要。
You needn't have worried. Just as I told you then there was no real need because I loved you in so many ways so much. And now it is clearly even more true—you can give me nothing now yet I love you so that you stand in my way of loving anyone else—but I want you to stand there.
你不必担心。正如我曾经告诉过你,我没有什么需要,因为我爱你的方式有很多种。现在看来这再正确不过了,现在你无法给予我什么,但我依然爱你,爱到我无法再爱别人。我想让你站在这里。
You, dead, are so much better than anyone else alive.
虽然你已死去,却强于任何活着的人。
I know you will assure me that I am foolish and that you want me to have full happiness and don't want to be in my way.
你肯定会认为我很愚蠢,你希望我获得幸福,不想妨碍我。
I'll bet you are surprised that I don't even have a girlfriend (except you, sweetheart) after two years.
我打赌你会很惊讶两年后我还没有女朋友(除了你,亲爱的)。
But you can't help it, darling, nor can I—I don't understand it, for I have met many girls and very nice ones and I don't want to remain alone—but in two or three meetings they all seem ashes.
但你控制不了,亲爱的,我也不能。我不懂,我遇到过很多女孩,非常好的女孩,我也不想单身。但两三次见面后,却发现她们都是虚有其表。
You only are left to me. You are real.
我只有你。你是真实的。
My darling wife, I do adore you.
我亲爱的妻子,我爱你。
I love my wife. My wife is dead.
我爱我的妻子,我的妻子去世了。
Rich.
理查
PS Please excuse my not mailing this—but I don't know your new address.
另外,请原谅这封信无法寄出,因为我不知道你的新地址。